I need advice, bad. it's embarassing?

Girl you are gorgeous! You deserve much better than him. There is a (REAL) man out there who will love you for exactly who you are. If someone makes you change for them, then they don't love you for you and who wants to be fake? And he's been cheating on you? I know how devastating that can be(personal exerience)! Crying is okay, it's a normal emotion when you are hurt, but please girl do NOT take him back you deserve a good, faithful man. Don't ever stoop to this dudes low levels again. You are very pretty and I'm sure there are many, many men out there wanting to treat you like a queen!